Here I sit and gaze at the door in front of me. The window in the door allows me to see beyond the door.
Faith is like a door. God asks me to have faith when there is a barrier in front of me. But I see the barrier and I want a magic Genie to tell me what is on the other side. If there is no Genie, there are uncertainties and fear will rise and throw me into an emotional battle.
I have been through a lifetime of uncertainties and fears, which gave me proof of disappointments. But God calls and says Karan come. And when I see the barrier He wants me to walk through, I ask, is this barrier worth walking through? Am I certain this is God calling? Is this essential that I need? Will I be secure through this? Will this barrier be entertaining? Or will I regret this act of walking through this barrier? I want to identify what is beyond this barrier and what is the consequences of not going through. I want to understand and to know before I take the battle on. Sometimes I think if I can get near enough to try and if I don’t like it I can pull away.
What if the other side is a fire? Fire burns. But God tells me he will be with me in the fire. He tells me fire burns impurities and will make me pure as gold. But What if the other side is fierce cold? I could get hyperthermia and die. He tells me He will be with me and I will die to self. God also reminds me of the time He put Adam to sleep and created Eve.